Do you know how much I miss you?

hanya sekadar gambar hiasan..hehe...

I've found this beautiful poem..the words really means a lot to me..and i grab this quotes to dedicate to you..just wanna let you know how much i miss you.. 

Have you ever bothered to realize
how much you mean to me?
I care so much for you inside
and miss you so deeply.

I sometimes sit for hours
Just to hear from you
And when you never come on
I’m unsure what to do

I lay awake in bed sometimes
With you stuck in my head
Sometimes I question your love for me
Or that your with someone else instead

Sometimes I walk at night
Just to gaze at a lonely star
Sometimes I fall to tears
Because you are so far

And every now and then
When I do speak to you
I always get worried
Incase you say we’re threw

And do you ever wonder
Just what I’m doing to
And do you know
Just how much I think of you

Because if tomorrow doesn’t come
And I haven’t spoke to you
How will you ever know?
Just how much I love you

Finally,The Festival Combat is MINE (^_^)... huuaarrggghh...!!!!!

 hye everybody,muhahaha...lama dah x update blog ni..sory ar,naz bz gila2 la..mcm2 kena wat..hmm but now i'm back,chewaahh..hehe..haaa,kat sini naz nk tnjuk skit gambar2 masa Festival Combat ari tu ( sabtu,4hb dec 2010 ) yang berlangsung di Dewan Silat, Majlis Sukan Negeri Pulau Pinang..haa,kalo korang nk tau,tournament ni memang naz dok tunggu2 dari dulu lagi..nama dia pun dh gerun kan,Festival Combat..haha..and alhamdulillah berkat training dan tnjuk ajar Sensei, dan sokongan kawan2 karate,naz berjaya gak merangkul pingat emas untuk salah satu tournament yang bertaraf 5 bintang..syukur sgt2..lgpun bukan sng,bnyak pengorbanan yang perlu dilakukan..masa nk enjoy2 dgn mber2 pun kena kurangkan coz training pnya psal..pstu p keje plak letih2,adei..
tp sumanya berbaloi,alhamdulillah..haa,xmo ckp pnjang2 lg dah..jom check pic2 ni..lets go..!!!

FOR A MOMENT, MY TEARS FALLING APART..AT LAST

After 3 1/2 YEARS, the script still the same.. I thought I had met someone who can makes my life HAPPY again.. For a moment, I felt like that.. She came and bring the JOYS into my life.. For a moment, I thought I had found someone who can makes me SMILE again.. Because I'm always smile when I'm calling her, when I'm chatting with her, and even when I'm texting her.. For a moment, I thought I had found someone who can always SUPPORTING myself.. Because she always show her support to me, even for a single thing.. For a moment, I thought I had found someone who can always TAKE A GOOD CARE of me.. Because she always show her care when I'm not feeling well.. For a moment, I thought I had found someone who can share all the problems together.. Because she always sharing her little problems with me, even it is not really a problem.. For a moment, I thought I had found a TRUE LOVE.. Because she always said that she miss me.. And told that she in love with me.. And for a moment, I felt finally there's someone who can ACCEPT ME..

Then one day, I'm texting her as usual, after 2 days she disappearing herself.. I'm glad, and thank god she replied my text.. But for a moment, I felt like a HEAVY STONE FALL DOWN TO MY HEAD.. Because she told me that she cannot accept any guys in her life anymore, including me.. And for a moment, I felt like I'm LOST MY OWN WAY..

Then another day, we still contacting each other.. I've tried my best to WIN HER HEART AGAIN.. For a moment, I feel like a sunshine appear in my life back.. Because she said she miss me too, when I said I miss her.. We keep on saying that for a couples of days..

Then yesterday, a true story came out.. For a moment, I felt like a BIG PUNCHLINE HIT MY DEAREST FACE.. Because I saw her page.. Its there.. Finally, she opened her heart.. A warm heart.. But sadly, its not for me.. Not at all.. The heart which I want to boost lately, had CLOSED TIGHTLY FOR ME.. But it were OPEN WIDELY TO HIM.. For a moment, I felt like I've already lost the key.. The key which used to unlock her heart.. And for a moment, I felt like I've lose to HIM, because he had found that key wisely.. For a moment, MY TEARS FALLING APART, AT LAST.. How this could be? Is the world is not fair enough to me..? Why I'm always be stricken..?? But its okay, I'll be strong.. So I'm whispered to myself, maybe this is my destiny..

And for you MY LOVE, I will never ever put the blame on you.. You have the right to choose the best for your life.. CONGRATULATIONS FOR YOUR NEW RELATIONSHIP.. May Allah bless both of you always, and forever.. And I'm sorry if I had done some mistaken, disturbing your life or hurting you previously.. And thanks a lots for a smooth love u gave for me, even it is too short.. Thanks a lots for a good care of me, even you never know how suffering I am.. And THANKS A LOT FOR BEING MY SWEETHEART LATELY, even it is looked like unofficially.. I really appreciate those wonderful moments we had together.. I will MISS YOU, and MISS YOU, and MISS YOU always.. You will never see my sadness, because I wouldn't let it be.. But if you feel like empty, that is my TEARS FLOWING AT THE DOOR OF YOUR HEART..

Dilamun Rindu

jom2 layan lagu ni..memang best giler...

Mengapa ketika bila aku sendirian,

Terkenang kenangan waktu kita bersama,

Pilu rasa hati bila engkau tiada disisi..

Indah waktu itu bila engkau disampingku, 

Seakan dunia milik kita berdua,

Kini kau tiada hanya aku dilamun rindu..

Mengapa kau menghilangkan dirimu,

Katakanlah salahku,

Sehingga kau hancurkan hidupku..wooo...

Berikanlah kesempatan,

Untuk aku menjelaskan,

Agar engkau kan fahami,

Apa yg telah terjadi,

Tak perlu kau meragui,

Ketulusan hati ini,

Kerna aku disalah mengerti..

Tidak pernah pun terlintas,

Untuk aku menduakan,

Kerna ku telah berjanji,

Cinta kita kan abadi,

Tak perlu kau mengkhianati,

Cinta yang luhur dan murni,

Diatas tohmahan orang lain..

Indah waktu itu,

Bila engkau disampingku,

Seakan dunia milik kita berdua,

Kini kau tiada hanya aku dilamun rindu..

It's Hard To Move On

Tell me how a love that was once so strong
And last for so long
Can all the sudden be gone
I feel like I just lost my best friend
When will the heartache and heartbreak end
I feel really sad but I don't feel like crying
I want to have her back but I don't feel like trying
I'm stressed and depressed, My life is a mess
Tell me god, is this a test?
And if it is, then give me a break
Its more than I can take
Maybe I could have had her back, but not that its too late
I can't quit thinking of the memories we shared
And when I think about them, it leaves me in despair
Because I cared for this girl, loved her with all my heart
And its tearing me apart, to know that we're apart
But what can I do, but hold on, be strong
Like 2Pac said, life goes on
But it feels so wrong that she's gone, out of my life
But who am I to choose whats wrong or right?
So I write this song, in hopes that it will help me move on
I've been holding this pain in my brain for so long
I'm just trying to make a change and go on
But its strange since its been so long since we broke up
And since I still have feelings for her
Maybe it was true love

LONELY AM I

Lonely are the nights
Lonely are the days
Lonely am I, in so many ways

Lonely are the seasons
Lonely are the years
So lonely am I, that it brings tears.

Lonely is this place
Lonely is my life
Lonely am I, that I reach for a knife

Lonely is this court room
Lonely is my sentence
So lonely am I that I ask for repentance.

When I Fall In Love

 When I fall in love, 

I want to be with her,
always..

In happiness,
to smile with her,
and be the one,
to hug her near..

In sadness,
to cry with her,
and be the one,
to dry her tears..

When I fall in love,
I will spend my every waking,
and sleeping moments,
with her..

And catch each moment in its
eternally
lovely form.

When I fall in love,
I will miss her,
the very moment,
I say 'goodbye'..

And my heart will yearn for,
the very moment,
I say 'hello'..

When I fall in love,
all my old hurts and pains,
will seem lost, 

and faded away..

And I will be strong and brave,
once again..

When I fall in love,
I want you to be happy,
always, ever.. 

And feel like,
the happiest person,
of them all..

Because that's

what I will feel,

when I fall in love,

with YOU...