After 3 1/2 YEARS, the script still the same.. I thought I had met someone who can makes my life HAPPY again.. For a moment, I felt like that.. She came and bring the JOYS into my life.. For a moment, I thought I had found someone who can makes me SMILE again.. Because I'm always smile when I'm calling her, when I'm chatting with her, and even when I'm texting her.. For a moment, I thought I had found someone who can always SUPPORTING myself.. Because she always show her support to me, even for a single thing.. For a moment, I thought I had found someone who can always TAKE A GOOD CARE of me.. Because she always show her care when I'm not feeling well.. For a moment, I thought I had found someone who can share all the problems together.. Because she always sharing her little problems with me, even it is not really a problem.. For a moment, I thought I had found a TRUE LOVE.. Because she always said that she miss me.. And told that she in love with me.. And for a moment, I felt finally there's someone who can ACCEPT ME..
Then one day, I'm texting her as usual, after 2 days she disappearing herself.. I'm glad, and thank god she replied my text.. But for a moment, I felt like a HEAVY STONE FALL DOWN TO MY HEAD.. Because she told me that she cannot accept any guys in her life anymore, including me.. And for a moment, I felt like I'm LOST MY OWN WAY..
Then another day, we still contacting each other.. I've tried my best to WIN HER HEART AGAIN.. For a moment, I feel like a sunshine appear in my life back.. Because she said she miss me too, when I said I miss her.. We keep on saying that for a couples of days..
Then yesterday, a true story came out.. For a moment, I felt like a BIG PUNCHLINE HIT MY DEAREST FACE.. Because I saw her page.. Its there.. Finally, she opened her heart.. A warm heart.. But sadly, its not for me.. Not at all.. The heart which I want to boost lately, had CLOSED TIGHTLY FOR ME.. But it were OPEN WIDELY TO HIM.. For a moment, I felt like I've already lost the key.. The key which used to unlock her heart.. And for a moment, I felt like I've lose to HIM, because he had found that key wisely.. For a moment, MY TEARS FALLING APART, AT LAST.. How this could be? Is the world is not fair enough to me..? Why I'm always be stricken..?? But its okay, I'll be strong.. So I'm whispered to myself, maybe this is my destiny..
And for you MY LOVE, I will never ever put the blame on you.. You have the right to choose the best for your life.. CONGRATULATIONS FOR YOUR NEW RELATIONSHIP.. May Allah bless both of you always, and forever.. And I'm sorry if I had done some mistaken, disturbing your life or hurting you previously.. And thanks a lots for a smooth love u gave for me, even it is too short.. Thanks a lots for a good care of me, even you never know how suffering I am.. And THANKS A LOT FOR BEING MY SWEETHEART LATELY, even it is looked like unofficially.. I really appreciate those wonderful moments we had together.. I will MISS YOU, and MISS YOU, and MISS YOU always.. You will never see my sadness, because I wouldn't let it be.. But if you feel like empty, that is my TEARS FLOWING AT THE DOOR OF YOUR HEART..
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