Do you know how much I miss you?

hanya sekadar gambar hiasan..hehe...

I've found this beautiful poem..the words really means a lot to me..and i grab this quotes to dedicate to you..just wanna let you know how much i miss you.. 

Have you ever bothered to realize
how much you mean to me?
I care so much for you inside
and miss you so deeply.

I sometimes sit for hours
Just to hear from you
And when you never come on
I’m unsure what to do

I lay awake in bed sometimes
With you stuck in my head
Sometimes I question your love for me
Or that your with someone else instead

Sometimes I walk at night
Just to gaze at a lonely star
Sometimes I fall to tears
Because you are so far

And every now and then
When I do speak to you
I always get worried
Incase you say we’re threw

And do you ever wonder
Just what I’m doing to
And do you know
Just how much I think of you

Because if tomorrow doesn’t come
And I haven’t spoke to you
How will you ever know?
Just how much I love you

Finally,The Festival Combat is MINE (^_^)... huuaarrggghh...!!!!!

 hye everybody,muhahaha...lama dah x update blog ni..sory ar,naz bz gila2 la..mcm2 kena wat..hmm but now i'm back,chewaahh..hehe..haaa,kat sini naz nk tnjuk skit gambar2 masa Festival Combat ari tu ( sabtu,4hb dec 2010 ) yang berlangsung di Dewan Silat, Majlis Sukan Negeri Pulau Pinang..haa,kalo korang nk tau,tournament ni memang naz dok tunggu2 dari dulu lagi..nama dia pun dh gerun kan,Festival Combat..haha..and alhamdulillah berkat training dan tnjuk ajar Sensei, dan sokongan kawan2 karate,naz berjaya gak merangkul pingat emas untuk salah satu tournament yang bertaraf 5 bintang..syukur sgt2..lgpun bukan sng,bnyak pengorbanan yang perlu dilakukan..masa nk enjoy2 dgn mber2 pun kena kurangkan coz training pnya psal..pstu p keje plak letih2,adei..
tp sumanya berbaloi,alhamdulillah..haa,xmo ckp pnjang2 lg dah..jom check pic2 ni..lets go..!!!

FOR A MOMENT, MY TEARS FALLING APART..AT LAST

After 3 1/2 YEARS, the script still the same.. I thought I had met someone who can makes my life HAPPY again.. For a moment, I felt like that.. She came and bring the JOYS into my life.. For a moment, I thought I had found someone who can makes me SMILE again.. Because I'm always smile when I'm calling her, when I'm chatting with her, and even when I'm texting her.. For a moment, I thought I had found someone who can always SUPPORTING myself.. Because she always show her support to me, even for a single thing.. For a moment, I thought I had found someone who can always TAKE A GOOD CARE of me.. Because she always show her care when I'm not feeling well.. For a moment, I thought I had found someone who can share all the problems together.. Because she always sharing her little problems with me, even it is not really a problem.. For a moment, I thought I had found a TRUE LOVE.. Because she always said that she miss me.. And told that she in love with me.. And for a moment, I felt finally there's someone who can ACCEPT ME..

Then one day, I'm texting her as usual, after 2 days she disappearing herself.. I'm glad, and thank god she replied my text.. But for a moment, I felt like a HEAVY STONE FALL DOWN TO MY HEAD.. Because she told me that she cannot accept any guys in her life anymore, including me.. And for a moment, I felt like I'm LOST MY OWN WAY..

Then another day, we still contacting each other.. I've tried my best to WIN HER HEART AGAIN.. For a moment, I feel like a sunshine appear in my life back.. Because she said she miss me too, when I said I miss her.. We keep on saying that for a couples of days..

Then yesterday, a true story came out.. For a moment, I felt like a BIG PUNCHLINE HIT MY DEAREST FACE.. Because I saw her page.. Its there.. Finally, she opened her heart.. A warm heart.. But sadly, its not for me.. Not at all.. The heart which I want to boost lately, had CLOSED TIGHTLY FOR ME.. But it were OPEN WIDELY TO HIM.. For a moment, I felt like I've already lost the key.. The key which used to unlock her heart.. And for a moment, I felt like I've lose to HIM, because he had found that key wisely.. For a moment, MY TEARS FALLING APART, AT LAST.. How this could be? Is the world is not fair enough to me..? Why I'm always be stricken..?? But its okay, I'll be strong.. So I'm whispered to myself, maybe this is my destiny..

And for you MY LOVE, I will never ever put the blame on you.. You have the right to choose the best for your life.. CONGRATULATIONS FOR YOUR NEW RELATIONSHIP.. May Allah bless both of you always, and forever.. And I'm sorry if I had done some mistaken, disturbing your life or hurting you previously.. And thanks a lots for a smooth love u gave for me, even it is too short.. Thanks a lots for a good care of me, even you never know how suffering I am.. And THANKS A LOT FOR BEING MY SWEETHEART LATELY, even it is looked like unofficially.. I really appreciate those wonderful moments we had together.. I will MISS YOU, and MISS YOU, and MISS YOU always.. You will never see my sadness, because I wouldn't let it be.. But if you feel like empty, that is my TEARS FLOWING AT THE DOOR OF YOUR HEART..

Dilamun Rindu

jom2 layan lagu ni..memang best giler...

Mengapa ketika bila aku sendirian,

Terkenang kenangan waktu kita bersama,

Pilu rasa hati bila engkau tiada disisi..

Indah waktu itu bila engkau disampingku, 

Seakan dunia milik kita berdua,

Kini kau tiada hanya aku dilamun rindu..

Mengapa kau menghilangkan dirimu,

Katakanlah salahku,

Sehingga kau hancurkan hidupku..wooo...

Berikanlah kesempatan,

Untuk aku menjelaskan,

Agar engkau kan fahami,

Apa yg telah terjadi,

Tak perlu kau meragui,

Ketulusan hati ini,

Kerna aku disalah mengerti..

Tidak pernah pun terlintas,

Untuk aku menduakan,

Kerna ku telah berjanji,

Cinta kita kan abadi,

Tak perlu kau mengkhianati,

Cinta yang luhur dan murni,

Diatas tohmahan orang lain..

Indah waktu itu,

Bila engkau disampingku,

Seakan dunia milik kita berdua,

Kini kau tiada hanya aku dilamun rindu..

It's Hard To Move On

Tell me how a love that was once so strong
And last for so long
Can all the sudden be gone
I feel like I just lost my best friend
When will the heartache and heartbreak end
I feel really sad but I don't feel like crying
I want to have her back but I don't feel like trying
I'm stressed and depressed, My life is a mess
Tell me god, is this a test?
And if it is, then give me a break
Its more than I can take
Maybe I could have had her back, but not that its too late
I can't quit thinking of the memories we shared
And when I think about them, it leaves me in despair
Because I cared for this girl, loved her with all my heart
And its tearing me apart, to know that we're apart
But what can I do, but hold on, be strong
Like 2Pac said, life goes on
But it feels so wrong that she's gone, out of my life
But who am I to choose whats wrong or right?
So I write this song, in hopes that it will help me move on
I've been holding this pain in my brain for so long
I'm just trying to make a change and go on
But its strange since its been so long since we broke up
And since I still have feelings for her
Maybe it was true love

LONELY AM I

Lonely are the nights
Lonely are the days
Lonely am I, in so many ways

Lonely are the seasons
Lonely are the years
So lonely am I, that it brings tears.

Lonely is this place
Lonely is my life
Lonely am I, that I reach for a knife

Lonely is this court room
Lonely is my sentence
So lonely am I that I ask for repentance.

When I Fall In Love

 When I fall in love, 

I want to be with her,
always..

In happiness,
to smile with her,
and be the one,
to hug her near..

In sadness,
to cry with her,
and be the one,
to dry her tears..

When I fall in love,
I will spend my every waking,
and sleeping moments,
with her..

And catch each moment in its
eternally
lovely form.

When I fall in love,
I will miss her,
the very moment,
I say 'goodbye'..

And my heart will yearn for,
the very moment,
I say 'hello'..

When I fall in love,
all my old hurts and pains,
will seem lost, 

and faded away..

And I will be strong and brave,
once again..

When I fall in love,
I want you to be happy,
always, ever.. 

And feel like,
the happiest person,
of them all..

Because that's

what I will feel,

when I fall in love,

with YOU...

Isnin oh Isnin..alaahaii...

hellooo..morning all,ehhe..chewah2,buat2 happy lak..padahal mmg bosan gila + x suka ari isnin..haha..kenapa..?? coz ari isnin la permulaan ari untuk bekerja,setelah bercuti pada sabtu dan ahad...aarrghh, memang malas gila...wlaupun naz ni sabtu and ahad pun keje gak,tp ari isnin la yg paling mengeliat kaw2 pnya,haha...time bangun tdo pun rasa mcm nk smbung balik je..pergh,tgok tilam dgn bantal tu,adoi...tmbah2 adik plak dok sedap je pejam mata smbil peluk bntal peluk dia,aiyaarkk...bergear iman den,huhu..tp nk wat cmna,dh memang tggungjawab...hmm,xpe2..i'll try my best...try2..trryyy...try lagi...erk...huuaarrgghhhhhh,ermm.. NGANTOK SEYH....!!!!!

Adik angkat..??? Abang angkat..???

hmm,tajuk yg agak sensitif bagi sesetengah org..hehe.. nape naz wat isu ni..??haa,ada la sebab musababnye,haha...isu yang agak x berkenan utk diri naz... hmm,nk tau nape..?? coz ada la..hehe...
Ok2, sblum tu naz nk tnya..sape yg ada adk or abg angkat..? haa,soalan ni utk gurls je k..yg guy,xyah jwb..haha.. confirm2 msti 90% gurls ada adk or abg angkat kan...ahaa,actually x slah kalo kita nk beradik or berabang angkat ni..tmbah plak utk sape2 yg xda adk bradik laki kan..msti tringin nk rasa ada adk or abg kan...
hmm,isu ni naz saje nk ckp,bkn pe sbb dulu dh penah jadi kat naz...agak x berkenan gak la dgn isu ni,sbb tu agak anti skit,hehe...nk tau nape..??haa,meh2 sini nk story skit..bnda ni bkn jadi kat naz sorang je,tp kat mber2 naz pun kena gak... dulu kitorang ni ada la gulfren masing2... suma saling syg menyayangi..msing2 bahagia je.. tp lepas bape bulan,gulfren masing2 dh pndai cari abg angkat sndiri..ada gak yg amik adk angkat..naz x mrah sbnarnya,mcm tu gak dgn mber2 yg len..as long pndai jaga diri,its ok..tp msalahnyer skrg, bila dh ada abg or adk angkat,haa mula la..kita ni jadi x bape pnting dh...kalo gado skit je,even bnda kecik skalipun,msti ngadu kat abg angkat..abg angkat plak,apa lagi..mula la pjuk2 la..knon diorang la yg lbeh caring....then dipendekkan cite,si dia tggalkan naz,and pergi kat abg angkat dia...siap kantoi dpn mata lagi..snggup ptuskan hubungan kitorang..hmm,tp xpe,naz redha je..nak wat cmna,maybe xda jdoh kan.. mcm tu gak la dgn kes adk2 angkat ni.. kadang2 time bosan2,sms la dgn adk angkat...sms x salah..stakat bertegur,lepas rindu..xda prob sgt..tp nk lepas rindu pun agak2 la..skit2 adk angkat,skit2 adk angkat...kadang2 ada yg sayang adk angkat lebih dari bf sndiri..hmm,x smua la kan,juz sesetengah je yg cmtu..hmm,tp xpe la..naz berdoa harap2 pasni kalo naz dah ada gf,naz harap dia leh trima diri naz seadanya... dan naz harap dia leh sayang diri naz ni,seboleh yg mungkin..even dia ada abg or adk angkat pun,naz xda msalah..asalkan dia tau batas2nya,dan dia tahu yg dia milik sumone..bkn nk control,tp juz nk merperingati,tu je kan...sapa yg x jeles kan,bila org yg kita syg sndiri,lebihkan org len dari kita..kalo ppuan pun,msti jeles giler kan,tgok bf masing2 rapat gila dgn adk or kakak angkat,kan2..haa,cmtu la kami kaum adam rasa..kami pun ada perasaan gak..bkn suma laki player,ok...!! huu,membebel dh..haha...

hmm,ok la..smpai sini je kot..actually ada bnyak nk cite psal adk and abg2 angkat ni..tp biar dulu la..len kali naz smbung lagi k, insyaallah...so,jgn lupa komen2 yaaw..hehe,tata...daaa!!!

Dilema : antara Penang or KL

hmm,mcm mana nk start ni ek...ok2,cmni.. nape naz wat title cmtu..?? haa,ni nak story la ni,and kalo bole nk mintak pendapat skit.. hmm,cite dia camni... skrang ni kan naz still work as a part timer kat gsc gurney plaza tu.. and i've been there since february 2010.. its almost 9 months,and its a long period.. kalo org ngandung bulan 2 dulu,skrg dh branak dh pun,haha.. hmm,so after dis i'm gonna finish my practical at usm..so,pas praktikal,naz mmg xda keje dah..nak stay permanent kat usm,mmg susah la..lgpun environment dia mmg x best gile,hehe.. nak apply graphic designer kat tmpat len,lagi2 la susah..huh.. so dipendekkan cite,naz follow nasihat cinema manager gsc tu ( nasihat la sgt ) utk apply position Assistant Manager..hehe,bnyi mcm best kan..!! hmm,actually naz nk aplly full time crew je,tp dia kata naz rugi cmtu,coz naz ada diploma..haa,lebey kurang cmtu la.. so,stelah pikir cook2,hehe,naz pun apply la assistant..tp yg msalahnya skrg,100% position ni,kalo naz apply,xkan dpt di penang..!!!!!! bermakna,naz kena transfer la..and slalunya, transfer ke KL lee..aiyark,tu yg pening ni..dh la kat sana xda sapa2 yg kenal..mber2 pun x ramai..hmm,btul2 dilema...dgn gaji pun yg ckup2 makan,bole ke ku survive kat sana..??
ya Allah,engkau permudahkanlah urusan hamba mu ini...so kawan2,yg mana ada nasihat tu,tlg2 la share k..kalo ada pengalaman ke,haa bole la cite2 skit..really needs all your opinions..hmm :(

I'm back....!!!

hellooo everybody,hehe...waaa,long time no see aa...since my last post on august,huhu..kira2 dh 2 bulan lebih dh naz x update blog ni..pergh...sory ar,bz skit..huhu,bkn skit,bnyak kot..mcm2 hal la kena settle..dgn keje la,praktikal la..mcm2 ag la..hmm anyway,i'm back now..tp xtau la bape lama leh tahan ni,hahaha... tp xpe,alang2 dh buat comeback ni,naz try update bnyak2 k..actually ada bnyak bnda nk story,nk share ni...tp xtau nk start cmna..n also xtau mna 1 yg penting,hahaha...

apa2 pun,pada followers naz yg x seberapa ramai tu,thanks la ek coz asyik tnya naz bila nk update blog..haa,korang mmg sporting aa..xpe2 ni ku nk update dh ni..hehe,let cekedaout...

Gampang Indon..kuang ajar btol..!!!!

Alloo everybody,hehe..hmm,dh bape ari dah aku x update blog ni..besa la,bz dgn keje..pastu sabtu ngan ahad aku wat part time work,kat panggung wayang..so dlm masa 2 3 ari ni memang x sempat la nk update blog ni..huhu..but anyway,here i come..hehe..


Haa,pagi tadi masa aku nak datang keje,aku singgah kat kedai runcit,nak beli paper..baru dok belek2 paper kat situ,mata aku jadi panas..berserau darah aku..nak tau nape?? haa,sebab ada 1 berita dari luar,yang dah buat aku rasa mcm nak ngamuk je..cite dia pasal penduduk2 Indonesia yang mewakili kumpulan penunjuk perasaan Benteng Demokrasi Rakyat (Bendera) dah bikin 1 hal yang memang boleh meletupkan 'gunung berapi' penduduk kat Malaysia..nak tau diorang watpe?? Haa,diorang baling najis manusia, (which means taik diorang sendiri kot) kat Kedutaan Besar Malaysia di Indonesia..tak cukup dgn tu,diorang pijak2 plak Jalur Gemilang kita atas jalan tempat diorang berkumpul,sambil melepaskan najis atas bendera kita..KURANG AJAR KAN!!!! Alasannya, diorang x puas hati dengan Malaysia yang didakwa merendahkan maruah Indonesia dalam insiden di perairan Bintan, 13 Ogos lalu apabila polis Malaysia menahan 3 pegawai penguat kuasa Kementerian Kelautan dan Perikanan Indonesia.. Pastu diorang kata najis2 yang diorang bagi tu sebagai 'hadiah' untuk Duta Besar Malaysia ke Indonesia kerana Malaysia selama ni bagi najis lagi kotor kat diorang..eehh,najis pa plak kita bagi kat diorang...?? Padahal diorang sendiri yang selalu buat taik kat Malaysia ni..jadi penyagak..dok kaco anak dara org,rogol sana sini,bawak lari anak gadis..pecah rumah..macam2 lagi la..dah la tu, tak sedar diri dan tak reti nak hargai jasa Malaysia..datang sini,hidup senang je..pastu senang2 plak dok kutuk Malaysia..macam MUSIBAT je perangai...memang geram gila la dgn diorang ni..walaupun bukan semua mcm tu,tapi psal nila setitik,rosak susu sebelanga... ingat best sangat ke?? huh,artis sendiri pun x terjaga,maksiat merata2..bini orang pun leh berzina,nak kata kita plak..sedar la diri tu.. 

ni la gambar penunjuk perasaan memijak bendera Malaysia selepas membaling najis ke dalam kawasan kedutaan Malaysia kat Indonesia, semalam...( sumber dari : Harian Metro )

So untuk semua Indon2 yang ada kat Malaysia ni,beware la ek..jaga diri bebaik..jangan buat benda2 yang leh menyebabkan kemarahan org Malaysia,kang tak pasal2 kena tibai..baru padan muka.. tapi tak semua Indon perangai buruk,ada gak yang baik..datang Malaysia betul2 nak cari rezeki..macam jiran aku,keje kilang..budi bahasa ada,hormat parents aku..ok la cmtu..haa..






So to you all,usha2 skit prangai Indon2 ni..jangan bagi muka sangat..k..chow!!

awal2 pagi lagi dh serabut

Allooo all..morning,hehe..hmm,aku skrg ni ada kat ofis..adei,awal2 pagi lagi dh bikin serabut pala otak..
mana taknya,orang2 atas suma dah mintak corporate design yg diorang sruh design ari tu..minggu lepas dh present dh,diorang puas ati..but at last diorang suruh work on it lagi..nk kena edit lagi la,aisey..skali dh buat,yang tu je la hasil yang terbaik..ni nak edit2 balik,adjust2 skit..blank pala otak cmni..rasa mcm nak buat lain je,tapi xda idea plak..aarrgghh,idea please come to papa :)  But its ok,aku try la edit tengok camna..kalo ok,ok la..kalo x ok,x ok la jawabnya..haha..haa,untuk korang suma,ni aku tunjuk pic corporate design aku untuk department Pusat Teknologi dan Pengajian Media di USM..korang nilai la sendiri ek cmna,antara 3 tu..
Actually ada bnyak,tapi aku amik mana yang aku rasa leh bleh blah je la..haha..

antara logo corporate design aku

To all movies fans..kaki-kaki wayang..yeaarrhh,gud news here...

Haa..dalam bulan depan,which mean september,ada beberapa movies yang leh kata top gak la,akan ditayangkan di GSC..but x semestinya suma movies tu akan ditayangkan di satu cinema je..macam kat Gurney,certain movies je yang ada show..yg selected je la..yang len maybe kat Queensbay dengan Sunway..
So sape2 kaki wayang yang ada plan nak tengok movie bulan depan,haa..ni aku ada sertakan sedikit sebanyak list-list movie,( but aku amik yang mana dijangka akan meletup / best je la ) yang akan kuar..so pandai2 la korang check k..

Poster - poster untuk movie terpilih bulan hadapan

Resident Evil : Afterlife ( Paul W.S Anderson )  

3D Version (9th September 2010)  Normal Version (16 Sept) English : Action / Thriller

Cats & Dogs : The Revenge Of Kitty Galore ( pun ada dlm 3D version gak ) ( Brad Peyton ) 

3D & Normal Version (2nd September 2010) English : Comedy

Legends Of The Guardian : The Owls Of Ga'Hoole ( 3D lagi ) ( Zack Snyder )  

3D & Normal Version (23 September 2010)  English : Adventure / Animation

King Of Fighter ( Gordon Chan )  

(2nd September 2010)  English : Action

The Hole ( ada 3D gak,adeeii ) ( Joe Dante )  

3D Version (23rd September 2010)   English : Thriller / Horror

Wall Street : Money Never Sleep ( Oliver Stone )  

(23rd September 2010)  English : Thriller / Drama

Devil ( M. Night Shyamalan ) <---sapa x kenal kan..hehe!!  

(23rd September 2010)  English : Thriller / Horror

Legend Of The Fist : The Return Of Chen Zhen ( Andrew Lau ) <---pelakon utama dia, Donnie Yen ;) 

(23rd September 2010)  Cantonese : Action / Thriller

Senario Asam Garam ( Hatta Azad Khan )

(9th September 2010)  Malay : Comedy




Kalo korang nak lagi info..haa,klik je kat sini  http://www.gsc.com.my/  (ni sumber aku la)

Unanswered Love ( this is for sumone )

Loneliness is tearing me apart..

how can I find a way to your heart??

I want your body close to mine.

Now, tomorrow and 'till the end of time..

Let me surround you with all my love.

It's all I have been thinking of.

I want you in my life...

But if I lose you, it will cut me like a knife.

I don't want to play a role.

I just want to give you my soul...

poster-poster untuk filem The Expendables Filem yang paling ditunggu-tunggu untuk bulan Ogos ni..akhirnya dh kuar dh pun..aku pun belum sempat p tengok lagi,haha..tapi ramai ar org kata,movie ni memang gempak giler..tengok la diorang punya aktor2 pun,otai2 suma..so memandangkan aku memang keje kat cinema,ada la sikit info pasal movie ni..haha..so,check it out..!!! Tarikh Ditayangkan: 13 Ogos 2010

Bahasa: English

Genre: Aksi, Adventure

Durasi: 1 jam 45 minit

Pengarah: Sylvester Stallone

Pelakon: Arnold Schwarzenegger, Bruce Willis, Jason Statham, Jet Li, Mickey Rourke, Steve Austin, Sylvester Stallone. Synopsis: Fearless Barney Ross (Sylvester Stallone) is leader of a tight-knit band of men - Lee Christmas (Jason Statham), ex-SAS and skilled with any bladed weapon; Yin Yang (Jet Li), a close combat master; Hale Caesar (Terry Crews), a long-barrel weapons specialist; Toll Road (Randy Couture), a skilled demolitions expert; and Gunnar Jensen (Dolph Lundgren), a veteran in precision sniping. When the mysterious Church offers Barney a job no one else would take, the team embark on what appears to be a routine mission: overthrow General Gaza (David Zayas), the murderous dictator of the small island country of Vilena. There, Barney and Christmas meet Sandra (Giselle Itie), a local freedom fighter with a dark secret. They also learn the true enemy - rogue ex-CIA operative James Monroe (Eric Roberts) and his henchman Paine (Steve Austin). When things go wrong, Barney and Christmas are forced to leave Sandra for dead. Haunted by this failure, they return to Vilena to finish the job he started. (Source: Cinema Online)